矛盾的心情

开心？伤心？
此时此刻，心情矛盾～
不应该是这样的！
难道果真像常人所说？
女人心海底针，女人是善变的动物！
是这样的吗？我竟然开始有点相信。。。
我昨天明明还很开心～

昨天
我学会了很多东西，
都是我很想学，但只是想，从来都没行动。。。
昨天下午，爸爸的车爆胎了，看着他换轮胎，
学了一些，相信真要我换时，应该没问题吧！
傍晚时，弟弟房间的灯坏了，
买了灯泡后，我请缨要帮爸爸换灯泡，
主要是不想他爬上楼梯，怕他跌倒吧！
然后经他指点，真的成功换上灯泡，
灯也亮了！那时真的很开心！
真的像飞起来似的～妈妈还说我傻～
换一个灯泡就那么开心～

今天
不知怎么，心情有点低落，
我想应该是那可恶的荷尔蒙在作祟吧！
是什么荷尔蒙?Adrenaline吗？
真的很可恶！还我心情不好！
想做什么事都提不起精神！
现在真的不开心多过开心！
真的认同了这句话：
Grief like the ocean,it is deep, dark, and biggest than all of us.
虽然不可必定有没有大过我们所有人，但
它起码大过了我！
如果我的endorphin 多一些，那不是会比较快乐吗？

烦烦烦～～～

无良驾驶者

今天陪爸爸去看医生，他发烧友发冷，所以怎样都必须去看医生，
不然真让我们担心死了。。。但是途中真让我吓破胆～
到现在依然还在怕～
今天出门时，差点车祸！
真不明白为什么会有那么无聊的人！
因为前面的车开很慢，所以就想超越他咯，
怎么知道他竟然不让我们超越，
就越开越快，害我差点就跟对面的车相撞。
后来他再次超越我，也还是一样，越开越慢，
还不时煞车！他前面更本就没有车嘛！
就是无聊没事做，不让我过～
当对面有车时，就比手势，叫我越过他。
真搞不懂，分明就是冲着我来的嘛～
我根本就不认识他！为什么会有这么无聊的人？
庆幸的是今天没酿成车祸，不然我也不知该怎么办！
希望这些人早日受到教训，知错，不再到处惹事生非！
如果我有事还无所谓，如果我爸爸有什么事，我不会放过他啦！
庆幸·庆幸。。。希望再也不会见到他了！也不会遇到这种人了！

love you, mama

mama，I love you~
Already a few days I feel I am really very blissful being your daughter.
haha... You must want to know why,isn't it?
hehe~ May be you didn't found that ...
But I still remember everything!
Since I was a little girl, I always feel that you love youngest brother more than me about 100 times. Sorry for that but I really think like that.
Actually,you love all of us, you love me too...
Every time you go for a trip, you must bring me along.
Every time I in bad mood, you would not scold me.
Every time I want something, you will buy for me.
Still remember that day, I say feel like want to eat a dish,
then the next day, you really cook it, and I can eat as dinner.
And the day before yesterday,I say I want to have the ABC soup for dinner,
then yesterday,I can really drink it.
Yesterday,I say want to eat the rice noodle, then you really cook today!
mama, I really love you so much.
I really hope you will know~
thanks for everything that you done for us.
I may not a good people,
I may not a good friend,
I may not a good student,
BUt, please,
please believe that ,
I will be a good daughter,
your good daughter...
I love you mama~

my dolphin~

I almost forget...
when I saw the post label favourite, I found that there's only one.
That's why I realise that one of my favourite haven't have a set there.
What's that? hahahaha... what else can be my favourite if it 's not my dolphin?
I want to write something for it, for my dolphin.
I really love you,dolphin~
you are such an amazing friend to human.
although I never see how you save human as wrote in the story,
but I really believe in it. There are too many story are about you,
about your good deed, saving people from death, dangerous...
May be I deeply believe in fairy tales, so that I believe in all of this.
But I really love you,dolphin!
Besides of those, I also know that you are the second highest IQ holder.
And of cause human is the highest one. And because of that,
i believe that all the story are true. Every times I read the news that dolphin kill by human,
I will very sad ,very angry~ How can they do this to our best friend?
No matter how blood they spill, they wouldn't be forgived.
oh my pity dolphin, how cruel human are, isn't it?

a letter for you

yesterday,you went back...
you come to find me too,even we are no longer neighbour...
although just a few minutes, but it's enough already ~
you said your grandfather 's things...
he was sick, but noisy. all your uncle busy, exhausted take care of him...
I think he also don't want be like that. He only want to go back to his own house.
You know that isn't it? Every old folks want to live in their own house, because they will only feel safe, happy living there~I really hope that he can get well soon so that he can go back to his house.And only by this way, he will be more happy.
And you ? How are you recently? I haven't ask this yet. Then your father already call you back.
Haiz~ it 's just a few minutes. I really feel not enough.
Do you know? Tomorrow will be the worst day for me.
I have to see someone, no, not someone, but many people that will make me feel
uncomfortable... You know who are them? Especially the woman!
Her presence will only bring the bad mood to my family,
and my mother and me will fell a lot.
You know? They will stay here for a week,until the small concert at the temple end.
Oh, I really don't know how can I survive in this week.
I really can't and afraid to Imagine it. my life will become overturn because of them.
the damn day I ever have~

my used neighbour, my best friend

Just now received a message,it's from you~
You say you wanna come back soon, and you are very happy !
I got what you meant. I really got what you meant.
We two seems like sister since we were a child.
We were neighbour, classmate,friend, and now we are good friend.
We have a common ground, the same dream~
We just hope to have a house,which 100% belong to us,ourselves~
Today,you are no longer my neighbour. It also means that you already achieve your dream.
Today when you reach home, I couldn't see you anymore.
I can't hear you call my name loudly like you used to be.
Although I never say that I am sad, I missed you but sometimes I did.
Every time you went back, you will come to my house to show your face,
to tell me that you were back,and I always say you disturbed me.
But this time,will you still come to me and disturb me like you used to disturb me?
I just feel,the longer the time gone,the far the distance between us.
May be it's just my own negative thought, but ......
Hopefully this will never happen, never becomes true~
I want we close like we used to be.
Although I always ignore you,assume that you are air,
when we are together,I will always let you talk, without giving any responses,
but I was listening, I really mean it.
You are really a ghost, hard to deal with.
You always make a missed call, sending a message, email,comment to me,
like you never gone...
But I think if without all of those, I must be feel lonely.
So,thanks a lot ,my best friend!!!
of cause you are because you are xuan~

惠英红

惠英红

最近一连看了两部有她参与演出的戏，不知觉爱上了。。。
也许是被她戏里的角色感动了吧！她的演技真是逼真，投入～
那也是吧！她的演技，一向来都是受到大家的认同啊，不是吗？
在铁血保镖里，她饰演了殷静，三婶的角色，这角色的确让人深深及在心中。
好可惜最后竟然是这样的结局。。。在想，她的真实性个，或许跟殷静这个角色，
有点相似吧！不知道为什么，反正就有这种想法！
在搜神传里，她饰演的凝香仙草，更让我心动！也许这形容词有点怪，但我真是词穷了。。
嘻嘻～仙女造型好美，心地又善良，发挥母爱的伟大～真的好喜欢！
看了她的戏之后，不知不觉的，就上网找起她的资料来了～
原来她有着那么一个不完美的童年，如果时间可以重来，我也希望她会有个快乐美满的童年。
不过像她这样坚强的人，真的是值得让我敬佩，崇拜～
还有就是她有颗孝顺的心～我也有，我爱妈妈，一直一直都会！
她也曾经有过自杀的念头，但是好在并没有成功，要不然，就少了一个那么优秀的人，那么专业的演员了。。。要不然我也没机会认识，知道那么一个人的存在了～
好希望今生今世可以有机会见到她，哪怕一面也好！
希望她可以遇到她的真命天子，然后爱护，呵护她，补偿小时候的不足～
惠英红，你一定要快乐噢～你很有性格，很直，我真很喜欢你。。。
我会永远支持你的！

wait me there!

My weather today is blue...
I don't know why, but that's what I feel today.
May be the sky is dark,
it looks down without the sun,
How about me?
I feel like blue because of what?
I have no idea.
It gonna exam,I haven't do enough preparation already.
Am I going to disappointed all of them who care for me?
NO!!!!!
I really don't want be like that.
I will do my best,yes, do my best
But not try my best...
I can do it,
there's nothing I can't do...
Wait me there,
the road of success!
I will be there!
For my parent, teacher, and myself!

i have a dream

I have a dream, a song to sing我有一个梦想,一首歌,唱
To help me cope with anything帮我应付什么
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale如果你想看到一个童话
You can take the future even if you fail你将来即使你能不能
I believe in angels我相信天使
Something good in everything I see一切好东西我看
I believe in angels我相信天使
When I know the time is right for me当我知道我是最佳时机
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream病患过溪-我有一个梦想

I have a dream, a fantasy我有一个梦,一个幻想
To help me through reality帮助我透过现实
And my destination makes it worth the while它的价值和归宿,而我
Pushing through the darkness still another mile另外还透过黑暗里推
I believe in angels我相信天使
Something good in everything I see

目黑

男︰命運就地改寫　只因你我當天那一眼
　　靜靜互望啞口無言　原來邂逅太簡單
女︰大地就像一黑　只得你那身影最顯眼
　　月下漫步東京同遊遺忘晚上變得
合︰越來越冷

男︰黑色眼睛　沿途與你有過一幀風景
　　但路上　誰也沒名沒姓
女︰靜靜行經　留影　目黑之夜有星
合︰遊歷過　下一次未必經

男︰坐下在目黑區深宵那個摩斯漢堡店
　　默默用著雙手談情　然而漢字會一點
女︰又是互望開始分手作結的戀愛短篇
　　但特別在這幾年來時時暗地記起
合︰亦紅著臉

男︰黑色眼睛　沿途與你有過一幀風景
(女︰當這黑眼睛　找到黑眼睛)
　　但路上　誰也沒名沒姓
(女︰平凡名字會褻瀆愛情)
　　自問曾經　憧憬　留低此地看星
(女︰情願我　能做你眼中那顆星星)
合︰無奈我　未得到被邀請

男︰黑色眼睛　沿途與你有過一幀風景
(女︰當這黑眼睛　找到黑眼睛)
　　但路上　誰也沒名沒姓
(女︰平凡名字會褻瀆愛情)
　　自問曾經　憧憬　留低此地看星
(女︰情願我　能做你眼中那顆星星)
合︰無奈我　未得到被邀請

发誓

发誓从此
绝无儿嬉
让爱恋随心妯味
余生爱着你
如死怕忘记
共谁入戏
从未到访过梦内
不过心事仍可装载
还未置身这事外
换来漫天尘埃
难道有害
何以不再
全意栽花仍不开
他朝养份再多不过无力爱仍热切在期待
发誓从此
绝无儿嬉
令我坚守
也全是你
因 这段情
告别明日痛悲
而你是情深亦无人比
让爱恋随心细味
明知爱着你
难得再共你
是谁造美
如若咖啡太乏味
苦涩甘愿尝得凄美
其实你早已预备
感觉曾经垂死
从未怯避
连你双臂
全意张开来高飞
即使最后你竟撑到无力仍愿意没逃避
发誓从此
绝无儿嬉
令我坚守
也全是你
因 这段情
告别明日痛悲
而你是情深亦无人比
让爱恋随心细味
明知爱着你
难得再共你
是谁造美
发誓从此
绝无儿嬉
令我坚守
也全是你
因 这段情
告别明日痛悲
而你是情深亦无人比
让爱恋随心细味
余生爱着你
如死怕忘记
共谁入戏

。。

我累了。。。
好想时间再也不要动了，就停在这秒吧！
以后的路，要怎样走呢？
我不知道。如果我还是这样，提不起劲，
那怎样考试？如果考不好，那怎么办？
真的好怕哦～
赶快变勤劳吧！读书做练习吧！
不然一定过不了这关！怎么办啦！
谁可以救救我啊？？？？？？？？？？？？？？？

祝她永远幸福！

听到她分手的消息，有点讶异！
本以为他会幸福。。。
怎知道还是一样！原来啊，看人真的不可以以貌取人。。。
有些人看起来真的很好，但是为什么就那么不好呢？
还好他及早选择了分手，受伤时必定的，
只是不幸中的大幸就是没上的很重吧！
真的不希望看到他受伤！
希望她前男友以后不会再像以前那样，
也希望她很快就走出这个不快乐的回忆，
应为我相信下个会更好，希望他的下一个会是个懂得珍惜她，爱护她，
永远守护在他身边，爱她的人！
祝她幸福～