矛盾的心情

开心？伤心？
此时此刻，心情矛盾～
不应该是这样的！
难道果真像常人所说？
女人心海底针，女人是善变的动物！
是这样的吗？我竟然开始有点相信。。。
我昨天明明还很开心～

昨天
我学会了很多东西，
都是我很想学，但只是想，从来都没行动。。。
昨天下午，爸爸的车爆胎了，看着他换轮胎，
学了一些，相信真要我换时，应该没问题吧！
傍晚时，弟弟房间的灯坏了，
买了灯泡后，我请缨要帮爸爸换灯泡，
主要是不想他爬上楼梯，怕他跌倒吧！
然后经他指点，真的成功换上灯泡，
灯也亮了！那时真的很开心！
真的像飞起来似的～妈妈还说我傻～
换一个灯泡就那么开心～

今天
不知怎么，心情有点低落，
我想应该是那可恶的荷尔蒙在作祟吧！
是什么荷尔蒙?Adrenaline吗？
真的很可恶！还我心情不好！
想做什么事都提不起精神！
现在真的不开心多过开心！
真的认同了这句话：
Grief like the ocean,it is deep, dark, and biggest than all of us.
虽然不可必定有没有大过我们所有人，但
它起码大过了我！
如果我的endorphin 多一些，那不是会比较快乐吗？

烦烦烦～～～

无良驾驶者

今天陪爸爸去看医生，他发烧友发冷，所以怎样都必须去看医生，
不然真让我们担心死了。。。但是途中真让我吓破胆～
到现在依然还在怕～
今天出门时，差点车祸！
真不明白为什么会有那么无聊的人！
因为前面的车开很慢，所以就想超越他咯，
怎么知道他竟然不让我们超越，
就越开越快，害我差点就跟对面的车相撞。
后来他再次超越我，也还是一样，越开越慢，
还不时煞车！他前面更本就没有车嘛！
就是无聊没事做，不让我过～
当对面有车时，就比手势，叫我越过他。
真搞不懂，分明就是冲着我来的嘛～
我根本就不认识他！为什么会有这么无聊的人？
庆幸的是今天没酿成车祸，不然我也不知该怎么办！
希望这些人早日受到教训，知错，不再到处惹事生非！
如果我有事还无所谓，如果我爸爸有什么事，我不会放过他啦！
庆幸·庆幸。。。希望再也不会见到他了！也不会遇到这种人了！

love you, mama

mama，I love you~
Already a few days I feel I am really very blissful being your daughter.
haha... You must want to know why,isn't it?
hehe~ May be you didn't found that ...
But I still remember everything!
Since I was a little girl, I always feel that you love youngest brother more than me about 100 times. Sorry for that but I really think like that.
Actually,you love all of us, you love me too...
Every time you go for a trip, you must bring me along.
Every time I in bad mood, you would not scold me.
Every time I want something, you will buy for me.
Still remember that day, I say feel like want to eat a dish,
then the next day, you really cook it, and I can eat as dinner.
And the day before yesterday,I say I want to have the ABC soup for dinner,
then yesterday,I can really drink it.
Yesterday,I say want to eat the rice noodle, then you really cook today!
mama, I really love you so much.
I really hope you will know~
thanks for everything that you done for us.
I may not a good people,
I may not a good friend,
I may not a good student,
BUt, please,
please believe that ,
I will be a good daughter,
your good daughter...
I love you mama~

my dolphin~

I almost forget...
when I saw the post label favourite, I found that there's only one.
That's why I realise that one of my favourite haven't have a set there.
What's that? hahahaha... what else can be my favourite if it 's not my dolphin?
I want to write something for it, for my dolphin.
I really love you,dolphin~
you are such an amazing friend to human.
although I never see how you save human as wrote in the story,
but I really believe in it. There are too many story are about you,
about your good deed, saving people from death, dangerous...
May be I deeply believe in fairy tales, so that I believe in all of this.
But I really love you,dolphin!
Besides of those, I also know that you are the second highest IQ holder.
And of cause human is the highest one. And because of that,
i believe that all the story are true. Every times I read the news that dolphin kill by human,
I will very sad ,very angry~ How can they do this to our best friend?
No matter how blood they spill, they wouldn't be forgived.
oh my pity dolphin, how cruel human are, isn't it?

a letter for you

yesterday,you went back...
you come to find me too,even we are no longer neighbour...
although just a few minutes, but it's enough already ~
you said your grandfather 's things...
he was sick, but noisy. all your uncle busy, exhausted take care of him...
I think he also don't want be like that. He only want to go back to his own house.
You know that isn't it? Every old folks want to live in their own house, because they will only feel safe, happy living there~I really hope that he can get well soon so that he can go back to his house.And only by this way, he will be more happy.
And you ? How are you recently? I haven't ask this yet. Then your father already call you back.
Haiz~ it 's just a few minutes. I really feel not enough.
Do you know? Tomorrow will be the worst day for me.
I have to see someone, no, not someone, but many people that will make me feel
uncomfortable... You know who are them? Especially the woman!
Her presence will only bring the bad mood to my family,
and my mother and me will fell a lot.
You know? They will stay here for a week,until the small concert at the temple end.
Oh, I really don't know how can I survive in this week.
I really can't and afraid to Imagine it. my life will become overturn because of them.
the damn day I ever have~

my used neighbour, my best friend

Just now received a message,it's from you~
You say you wanna come back soon, and you are very happy !
I got what you meant. I really got what you meant.
We two seems like sister since we were a child.
We were neighbour, classmate,friend, and now we are good friend.
We have a common ground, the same dream~
We just hope to have a house,which 100% belong to us,ourselves~
Today,you are no longer my neighbour. It also means that you already achieve your dream.
Today when you reach home, I couldn't see you anymore.
I can't hear you call my name loudly like you used to be.
Although I never say that I am sad, I missed you but sometimes I did.
Every time you went back, you will come to my house to show your face,
to tell me that you were back,and I always say you disturbed me.
But this time,will you still come to me and disturb me like you used to disturb me?
I just feel,the longer the time gone,the far the distance between us.
May be it's just my own negative thought, but ......
Hopefully this will never happen, never becomes true~
I want we close like we used to be.
Although I always ignore you,assume that you are air,
when we are together,I will always let you talk, without giving any responses,
but I was listening, I really mean it.
You are really a ghost, hard to deal with.
You always make a missed call, sending a message, email,comment to me,
like you never gone...
But I think if without all of those, I must be feel lonely.
So,thanks a lot ,my best friend!!!
of cause you are because you are xuan~